Researching more about nendoroid dolls feels like an inevitable whirlpool into the rabbithole that is “making doll clothes.” Like bruh I don't even make REGULAR clothes and now I'm tempting fate and considering getting into a hobby with a heavy temptation to make all the wildest clothes of my imagination? Historical clothes? Costumes? Frilly dresses I would never wear but like aesthetically???
I've consoled myself about this by making a wishlist I'll never open again to contain the yearning. Oh, and I ended up doing enough adulting things that I feel reasonably in control of my life but unfortunately I'm like, way behind on chores as a result and I was up until 7 a.m. earlier last night because the vibes were wrong idk. Tomorrow I need to work on hecking. Backing up tumblr my own way using the github method because the backup through the blog exporter just failed. I might email staff about it if I feel ambitious but I'm worried that'll just draw attention to myself. Best to not if I can try it my way.
Other irrelevant nonsense is making an account on a pen related forum, recycling all my recyclables, and discovering that my hair looks nicer when I comb it. I am being such an adult I'm impressed with myself. Honestly I'm surprised I'm blogging here and keeping up with wafrn and dreamwidth at all because I usually bounce after an indeterminate amount of time. It helps that I'm using them all for specific purposes and tumblr is running parallel to all of them. I can't even say they're distracting me from tumblr, because they're mostly distracting me from “stare into space while youtube plays in the background on loop” time.
That does remind me though, I did have a perilous run in with a new therapist that I may or may not stick with. She uses some therapy technique that doesn't vibe with me at all and the other one that I'm there for requires a lot of trust to build up first. Just a complicated situation all around. The worst part about these situations is that I need to self advocate but it's on a cooldown of “until the next appointment” which is in 2 weeks. Forever thankful that my psychiatrist is awesome. We're meeting this friday and I'll just have to be like “I'm in the soup” but in a normal way of saying that because man, it has been a week. A year. A life.
o|-< a life.
Anyways brb shaking sense into myself- I do have lots of positive things going on. I found a book about the history of ink on the forums, have 60+ weaving books to read on my nook, and my inks arrived in the mail forever ago so I can ink up my pens whenever. I'm considering buying a ultrasonic cleaner so I might try that on my suffering platinum preppy that I so neglected 2 times in a row first? Or empty my penlux -_– okay this is trending towards the negative because I don't want to think about the filling mechanism. I do want to think about how next month I'm going to probably get some weaving supplies. I think 1 heddle and 1 blanket. Storing crafting materials for my loom is a problem for future me (or should be. I'm already imagining wall mounted pegs for cones).
Other exciting things is that there's nothing really stopping me from becoming a hermit and consuming a truck load of anime at any moment. Aside from the one social event this weekend. And visiting someone tomorrow. Excluding those two immediate things it's not an issue. I haven't been doing it because I felt bad mentally and then I felt worse because I stopped watching my beloved anime, and the cycle just cycles idk I don't even work here. I have a heache. I should go to bed. Goodnight internet o/ sleep well ✨